2025-02-03 20:42 +0100 - 2 min read
I can’t see what I’m going to do in three months. It feels like I’m walking in the fog.
There are so many things I love doing and would happily devote myself to. But liking something isn’t enough - there’s another critical factor: money. Just to exist already requires decent income (rent alone is brutally expensive). And who only wants to exist? Everyone wants to live fully - to grow, to feel alive, to explore new places and ideas.
The thought of working in an office for eight hours a day kills me. I crave deep work and will gladly lose myself in projects for hours, but money alone can’t motivate me for too long. Work without any purpose quickly becomes meaningless.
I need to find a way to sustain myself while being able to explore different fields and aspects of life. Turns out making money on your own is not that easy. Or is it? The thing is, I probably overestimate the difficulty, and being afraid of failing, I simply choose to do nothing.
Yet in this time of uncertainty, there is no room for waiting. The best thing I can do is to plan less and try more. Preparing has its value, but it’s so easy to accidentally trap yourself in an infinite loop. There are a lot of things you simply cannot predict without getting halfway through, and at that point obsessive planning won’t help you.
It’s ideal time to stop complaining and start acting.